Indulging

I think that sometimes, I don't indulge enough. I should

- re-live good memories

- love the little things

- laugh hard... then harder

- cling to my families love

- re-watch good parts in movies

- enjoy school, work, and dating

- love my food and drink

- feel blessed for what relationships I have

- cherish more the gospel

- love

Who's with me? :)

Fiddler On The Roof

"Blessings on your house, Mazeltoff Mazeltoff..."

Okay, so I'd never seen Fiddler On the Roof before, but wow was I impressed. I went to see it on saturday night with my family. It was such a good time, and Hale Center Theater did such a great production/rendition of it. I love the motto of the musical. It's all about being happy with the events that transpire in your life, no matter how hard they are for you to go through. Now, as we all know, that's pretty much the motto of my life, so this really did strike a chord with me.

For those of you who haven't ever seen it, let me just summarize what happens...

It's set during the time of the Russian Revolution in this Jewish town called Anatevka. This town is not a wealthy place, and most of the residents just barely get by on their jack of trades (for example, there's a rabbi, a butcher, a taylor, and the main character is a milk man). Well, needless to say Tevya, the main dude, has 5 daughters, all very amiable girls, but with no dowry to recommend them to any men, they have a matchmaker put them together with their future spouses. This doesn't settle well with Tevya's daughters, and the oldest three end up braking from tradition and marrying whom they love! Then the cutest of ever songs, "Do you love me" sung by Tevya and his wife Golde, makes them question how they actually did fall in love after 25 years of living together as a married couple. Thoughout all of this they experience many trials, and eventually get pushed out of their beautiful town with very little notice... Much like my ancestors the pioneers did.

Pretty much this just made me think, wow, I'm so lucky. I get to choose who I want to marry, what I want to do with my life, how I will eventually be successful etc. I did take in most of all Tevya's attitude. He is always talking with God about the events in his life, both good and bad, and mulling over each decision with God. I think that I need to do more of this in my life. I come to my father in heaven in the mornings and at night, but I need to do it more often. I also loved how Tevya makes a joke out of almost everything that happens, as to make it light hearted and keep him and his surroundings peaceful/happy. I dunno, it just makes you think.

I highly recommend watching this musical, or even going to it at Hale Center Theater. It's fantastic.

Pictures of the haps lately

Love this picture. My team

is da bomb... and these are some

of my favorites.

Team picture!

Me and the girls at Hannah's ballet recital

Erik Andersen (my home teacher) and I at skate your heart out... like the outfits?

Kelly and ward friends and teammates at skate your heart out.

Updates

FIRST OFF... yesterday... I saw....

Crazy right? I got locked out of an entrance to the field, so grudgingly I persevered to the other side of the field, and fate happened. I was just walking near the entrance to the athletic building at Westminister college, and Hello John. I smiled awkwardly at him and so did he at me, and that was that. WHY DIDN'T I SHAKE HIS HAND??? I dunno. I guess I was stunned and didn't really realize who it was until he was gone. But still, freak out I did as I entered the field and bragged about it to my teammates. I think it was also fate that because of this meeting with him yesterday, my boys won their game. They are currently ranked 3rd in the Hollinger power rankings on espn, and are tied for 4th in the western conference. Lets hope they either stay there or go ahead because they sure need to make it to the western conference finals. I need my basketball to last as long as it can. :)

Other updates...

My team played in a tournament yesterday against CSU, Wyoming, and Air Force. CSU is our rivals, our Jordan if you will... they are such a hard team for us to get around for some reason. No one on my team has ever played a game against them where we won. BUT. Yesterday all that changed. We beat them 5-6 and it was a fight all the way to the end. One of the girls on my team had a red card called on the player who slashed her on the head, giving her a nice little gash that took her (having had 4 points in this vital game) out for the rest of the tournament. What a time. Then it was Wyoming who we beat by a lot and Air Force who we beat 21 (ish) to 0. Sounds ruthless right? But we played so horribly against Wyoming that we had to make up for it. It was a good day followed by a dinner with my high school girlfriends that was way fun and an early bedtime for me! Perfect day I'd say. Except for one thing. I had been feeling very odd about something all day. Something was just off... I was nervous and feeling nauseous, but not because of the games, but something else that I couldn't put a pin on. I thought that going to bed early would help that, but I'm not sure. I think part of it was that I do not want to go back to school and have to face yet another test. Last week my two hardest classes had exams, one was a final. The final went okay, I didn't fail, but I didn't excel either. And the exam went poorly for everyone, so he said he'd add on 10-15 points to our scores and therefore I ended out doing pretty good on that one. It is just so stressful this school thing, but o well. I choose to come here. :)

Another reason I think is that I was feeling uneasy about some man struggles, which if you want info on you should come to me, but I am just anxious to know what's going on in everyone's heads. I think that it would be awesome sometime to have a crystal ball just waiting for me to look into and know what my future would be. :)

I thought also maybe a reason I'm feeling weird is all of the housing struggles we've been going through. I love where we live because the people are great and I love my roommates so no matter where we end up it will be something good. I am just hoping that it isn't somewhere were I have to pay a lot of money. I am pretty positive we'll be living in the riviera again, but o well. I'm not in control of that.

The last thing I think is that I'm worried about someone close to me dying. I know this is a horrible thought to have, but I have been reading a lot about people dying and getting into serious substances etc that get them addicted and pulled speedily down the path of destruction. I do not like thinking this way, but it is what it is I guess. I hope that it will pass, and that if something like this did happen, I'd be able to help out as much as i could. Maybe I'm being prepared for a hard trial... I dunno. I'm just anxious.

The last last thing is that I have no idea what I'm going to be doing with my summer. I still haven't heard back from EFY yet, and I don't know if I'll be living down here in the spring going to school or if I'll be in sandy or what. I don't have another job (besides bath and body) to go to and I don't really want to just sit around and not be productive either. I would LOVE it if I could just hear back from EFY and therefore figure out my life. ha! It's been almost 6 weeks since I interviewed.

I'm so glad that I have a testimony of the Savior. I know that all will be well and that I need to just trust in him and in my father in heaven.

I do really want to give my mom and Katie a little shout out for helping me de-stress this weekend. I REALLY appreciate it and love you both.

Valentines days thoughts

Girls I got to know better in Santa Barbara... I love them.

I've never been a fan of Valentines day. This year though was a little different. I hardly had time to think about the fact that it was valentines day, and therefore I didn't get sad that I don't have a man to hold my hand or to love like so so many people who I am around. It's been an interesting holiday season because I've been SO busy with school, work, and lacrosse to think about much else. I do have some questions for the wide world of people who read my blog (all 3 of you.. maybe 4 sometimes.. ah ha... ;)) but I wonder sometimes if I put off negative/ naive vibes to dudes... I am not a very confident person when it comes to putting myself out there or intruding on people's lives. I am not the kind of person who goes up to guys and strikes a conversation just because I can. I don't like to go over to people's house without an invitation or linger just so I can have interaction with people. I wonder though, is this a bad thing for my social life? Why do others find people to date who are interesting and who they can actually like back? I just don't really get the world of dating because I'm too busy to be a part of it. HA... Really, the truth is that it's not a priority in my life right now. I know that I will find someone who is fantastic and who will love me for eternity someday, but I don't need to find that someone right now, because I couldn't be committed enough to him to make a relationship work. I just wonder what that catch is for a good looking/ interesting guy to think... shoot... I want to ask her out. Anyways, just throwing this little thought out there.

Thought #2 is that Heavenly Father knows me. I had a wonderful experience with that today. I know that he gets my personality and my needs better then anyone else, even better then myself. I realized today that he has given me challenges because he knows that I need a challenge to excel and want to progress in life. I love beating the odds, and working towards goals. Today was the first time in a while when I felt the WOW feeling of how much Heavenly Father knows and loves me. I'm SO GRATEFUL for this life that I lead. I have been immensely blessed and today humbled to be given this gift.

Legit new years resolution

Hey ya'll.

I'm writing it down and signing it with my word and maybe even my blood later... and you are my whitnesses. I'm going to need everyone's help on this one.

I am going to go on a little lifestyle diet.

I would like to cut back on sweets, and increase my veggie intake.

This means that I need to replace my late-night eating habits with carrots and peas and increase my time at the library as to avoid time spent at my house in my pantry. Also, no sweets till sundays. SO HARD but doable. this is what I did in my sophomore years and I was a babe. also I was 15 lbs lighter. 15 LBS!

I also need to get more rest and cut down on my selfishness.

Lifestyle changes people. That's where it's at. I am SERIOUS about this this time.

No more poopy food during the week, and only one big dessert on sunday. Then It'll be like I never gained that freshman/hawaii 15.

(p.s. the acronym lbs. for pounds is funny when you say it lubs... cuz it's like chubs and lumps together... which = fat... perfect.)

A time for reflection

Katie and I with a Pirate in Lahaina. Awesome

Hawaii was amazing and relaxing and I'm sad to be back in the cold, but it gave me so much time to think through things that were important to figure out and to find myself again. As you know with having a really busy schedule it's hard to just sit and think for any length of time because you feel like you should be doing so much more.
During all my thinking time I thought a lot about who I want to become and what I want to do with my life... for real. I thought about becoming a mother eventually (a long ways away I'm sure) and with all the couples around I thought a lot about marriage. I know, it's retarded to even think about because I'm only 19... but in the culture I'm in down at BYU and with all these older married couples around me it was a hard subject to avoid. I know these things for sure. I want to experience the world. I want to live a life as a single person for as long as I can until the time is right to become seriously involved with someone and by this I mean that I need to take some time to experience volunteering and giving of myself to someone or something else (like humanitarian), I want to save up money, but also spend it doing great things with people that I love. My loving parents have giving me opportunities for growth and learning and because of that I have had the opportunity to even think about doing greater things in my life then school and sandy Ut etc. I learned while I was in Hawaii that we need to relish in the happy things and be loving to all those whom we can. I need to be less judgmental and more open with people and how I am feeling, feel etc etc. I need to strengthen my testimony in the Lord and in our Father in Heaven and the scriptures. Luckily for me, this means that I need to read and pray more earnestly because that's how you communicate with God. I have figured out my goals for 2010 and I'm finally ready (now that it's almost Feb. :) ) to accomplish them.
I'm sorry that that's just like a soliloquy of my thoughts from the week of rejuvenation, but it's nice to put it all out there. I keep thinking of this phrase... As Elder Holland said in a talk in 2005, my favorite talk ever, "Be good to yourself for you need you, the Lord needs you, the World needs you."

Here are some pictures of Hawaii!!

Me Kim and Katie... We're about to jump off that cliff! (Jacee couldn't come and Danielle left early.

Just a little beach shot

FATTA at HAWAII

My o my two days down 7 more to go and for real I feel like a hippo. It's wonderful. This is one reason why I love Hawaii... I get to sleep lots, eat, read and chilax just all the time and it really is great. I will work out lots when I get back because Whitney and I are going to train for the Salt Lake half marathon. O man, It'll be great so for now I'm going to eat a lot and just really enjoy myself. :) I will take lots of pictures for everyone of the awesome time I've been having here.