Christmas time

Merry Christmas everyone!  I'm so happy that it is Christmas time.  Nothing is like christmas time.  It makes me so happy to think on the birth of our savior and how truly grateful I am that he was born and that he died for us so that we could have eternal salvation.  I'm so happy to be with my family for more then three days at a time and be able to sleep, read, exercise, and help my mom out around the house.  I miss the easiness of home and the kindness that I can usually expect from my family.  The Christmas has a different feeling to it for me because I've grown to appreciate my family so much more, and I've grown so much closer to my savior.  Thank you thank you thank you all for helping me through this first semester of school.  It's been so hard for me to get through, and I'm so grateful for the little things I've received in the way of prayers, notes, and friendship.  Merry Christmas!  I hope that it is all you could ever dream of.  All my love. 

O the fun you have when you have no fun...

So this week has been finals week and it's been one of the more fun weeks from the semester.  It's kinda weird how that works out.  On sunday I was in Provo the whole day and it was fun cuz I was getting lots done but also getting some fun in by having textbook fun (sliding on textbooks.. o great stuff).  Then we went to ward wrap up and I enjoyed it... so funny because I have only gone twice and both times I've done stuff... like give the spirtitual thought or introduce my roommates.  Anyways, life's good even though it's finals time.  I'm not even stressed. bah!!

Exercise, thank heaven

 this is me... after three hours 


I love working out!!! It seriously is one of my most favorite things to do in the whole world... and that's a big deal I think because it really is so important to living life... It makes you less inclined for heart disease (I wish my dad would listen to me and exercise cuz i wouldn't be so scared about him dying of a heart attack...) it increases your likely hood of aging well, it makes you happier, it makes you look good, gives you a heathy glow... and most importantly, it takes away from life for a second and you get to focus on you... sometimes it's a nice thing to do, and you are supposed to have moments of reflection in your life right?  What a better time then while improving your health.  I went to 24 hour tonight and worked out there for 3 hours... talk about not wanting to be at school anymore. It was awesome.  I loved every second... even when I wanted to kill my bike during the cycling class. I don't think i've ever sweat that much in my life.  I think that I just might fall in love with cycling. :) I think it would be a great way to tone up your lower body, and to shake off that extra fat from the tummy... literally.. you shake a lot in the spinning class... I hope that you guys have some good stories for me of times when you worked out and loved it.  It seems to me that there's something new to discover and something new to have fun with with exercise.  Can you tell it's one of my biggest passions?? :)

Do you ever have those days when you just feel like this ... ?

Dear journal... ha ha! 

   It's so weird how i've felt all day, like I'm worthless, and all I'm doing is moving through the motions of the days.  There are some times in my life when i've wondered what my purpose here is... and every time I have these feelings I look to my family for support, I look to my good friends, the scriptures, my p. blessing, and of course (but usually last..) my father in heaven.  I just have stupid feelings of inadequacy and self doubt.  I seem to lose my persona somewhere in the monotony of my days.  I think the reason for these odd feelings today, is the lack of men in my life.  I feel like i've lost some of the best things that ever happened to me in my great friends who are either on their missions, about to go on their missions and are so busy that we haven't really gotten the chance to get together this semester, or are in high school.. :(.  I thought I made some improvements, claiming that I'd received 3 guys friends while being here in Provo, and it turns out that was just a joke.  It's a weird part of me that i've lost, and hardly have the desire to go find again.  Maybe this is just PMS!!! BLAST BEING A WOMEN. At least i can still laugh it out and pretend that it's just cuz i'm so awesome that no boy's are pursuin. bah ha ha. :)

Wal-mart run :)

O the joys of college.  Yesternight I couldn't concentrate, and I told whitney... dude, what can I do to get out of this helamen place... So we went to wal-mart... and I don't think i've had that much random fun since my first date with a boy my junior year. so sad. I must do it more often!!! It was funny we banana cheered. bah!