Valentines days thoughts

Girls I got to know better in Santa Barbara... I love them.

I've never been a fan of Valentines day. This year though was a little different. I hardly had time to think about the fact that it was valentines day, and therefore I didn't get sad that I don't have a man to hold my hand or to love like so so many people who I am around. It's been an interesting holiday season because I've been SO busy with school, work, and lacrosse to think about much else. I do have some questions for the wide world of people who read my blog (all 3 of you.. maybe 4 sometimes.. ah ha... ;)) but I wonder sometimes if I put off negative/ naive vibes to dudes... I am not a very confident person when it comes to putting myself out there or intruding on people's lives. I am not the kind of person who goes up to guys and strikes a conversation just because I can. I don't like to go over to people's house without an invitation or linger just so I can have interaction with people. I wonder though, is this a bad thing for my social life? Why do others find people to date who are interesting and who they can actually like back? I just don't really get the world of dating because I'm too busy to be a part of it. HA... Really, the truth is that it's not a priority in my life right now. I know that I will find someone who is fantastic and who will love me for eternity someday, but I don't need to find that someone right now, because I couldn't be committed enough to him to make a relationship work. I just wonder what that catch is for a good looking/ interesting guy to think... shoot... I want to ask her out. Anyways, just throwing this little thought out there.

Thought #2 is that Heavenly Father knows me. I had a wonderful experience with that today. I know that he gets my personality and my needs better then anyone else, even better then myself. I realized today that he has given me challenges because he knows that I need a challenge to excel and want to progress in life. I love beating the odds, and working towards goals. Today was the first time in a while when I felt the WOW feeling of how much Heavenly Father knows and loves me. I'm SO GRATEFUL for this life that I lead. I have been immensely blessed and today humbled to be given this gift.

Legit new years resolution

Hey ya'll.

I'm writing it down and signing it with my word and maybe even my blood later... and you are my whitnesses. I'm going to need everyone's help on this one.

I am going to go on a little lifestyle diet.

I would like to cut back on sweets, and increase my veggie intake.

This means that I need to replace my late-night eating habits with carrots and peas and increase my time at the library as to avoid time spent at my house in my pantry. Also, no sweets till sundays. SO HARD but doable. this is what I did in my sophomore years and I was a babe. also I was 15 lbs lighter. 15 LBS!

I also need to get more rest and cut down on my selfishness.

Lifestyle changes people. That's where it's at. I am SERIOUS about this this time.

No more poopy food during the week, and only one big dessert on sunday. Then It'll be like I never gained that freshman/hawaii 15.

(p.s. the acronym lbs. for pounds is funny when you say it lubs... cuz it's like chubs and lumps together... which = fat... perfect.)