Girls I got to know better in Santa Barbara... I love them.
I've never been a fan of Valentines day. This year though was a little different. I hardly had time to think about the fact that it was valentines day, and therefore I didn't get sad that I don't have a man to hold my hand or to love like so so many people who I am around. It's been an interesting holiday season because I've been SO busy with school, work, and lacrosse to think about much else. I do have some questions for the wide world of people who read my blog (all 3 of you.. maybe 4 sometimes.. ah ha... ;)) but I wonder sometimes if I put off negative/ naive vibes to dudes... I am not a very confident person when it comes to putting myself out there or intruding on people's lives. I am not the kind of person who goes up to guys and strikes a conversation just because I can. I don't like to go over to people's house without an invitation or linger just so I can have interaction with people. I wonder though, is this a bad thing for my social life? Why do others find people to date who are interesting and who they can actually like back? I just don't really get the world of dating because I'm too busy to be a part of it. HA... Really, the truth is that it's not a priority in my life right now. I know that I will find someone who is fantastic and who will love me for eternity someday, but I don't need to find that someone right now, because I couldn't be committed enough to him to make a relationship work. I just wonder what that catch is for a good looking/ interesting guy to think... shoot... I want to ask her out. Anyways, just throwing this little thought out there.
Thought #2 is that Heavenly Father knows me. I had a wonderful experience with that today. I know that he gets my personality and my needs better then anyone else, even better then myself. I realized today that he has given me challenges because he knows that I need a challenge to excel and want to progress in life. I love beating the odds, and working towards goals. Today was the first time in a while when I felt the WOW feeling of how much Heavenly Father knows and loves me. I'm SO GRATEFUL for this life that I lead. I have been immensely blessed and today humbled to be given this gift.
1 comment:
No duh about the boy thing. To be honest, I wish I had your ability in interact with others. I don't know why boys are not just jumping the gun to go out with you. Maybe they are chicken! (I watched Pres. Uchtdorf's CES fireside on Monday. Wow, it was good. He talks about how boys are scared of rejection...)Just make sure that you are active in your ward and classes. Go out and have fun! (not that this is a problem for you ^_^)
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