Thanks to all of you who do read this!

I know that I have followers, but sometimes it's nice to ask the questions so you can get the answers. I've been so so busy lately. It's quite retarded really. I feel like for the first time in my life, that I have no extra time for anything, and wish that I could have more hours in the day! I feel as if I'm not even myself most the time anymore. But, don't you worry friends and family. I have awesome friends... and family... and roommates and of course! I have the lord and his infinite atonement. If I could sum up the last month of my life in school and busy with things etc. i would say that it has been amazing. I've learned so so much already! I can't believe that it's almost october, and already so cold outside. It makes me so sad that summer weather is leaving us and that there will soon be snow! But, that also means more time for hot chocolate and movies and talking with good buddies. Hopefully this will also mean more time for LOVE! for me... cuz I'm lacking in that department yet again. :) Well this is a random post and i'm sory it doesn't stand up to most my others, but that's my life for now. We won our lacrosse tournament in Colorado this last weekend, I took an asian humanities test, and tomorrow I have to take my anatomy test... so... I'm SUPER busy with life, but i'm loving it. And... Don't forget the BEST time of the year is coming up this weekend. General conference time! It's seriously my favorite time of the year. It's so relaxing and amazing to hear all of those men preach words from our fahter in heaven and his son jesus christ. Love it! Okay bye.

Anyone even read this thing??

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Thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment

... And then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high...

all these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good...

These have been my favorite verses of scripture since I was a sophomore in high school. Now, four years later as a sophomore in college, I can't live without their repetition in my head day in and day out. I have a splendid life. I have been so blessed. But... we all have our days and our moments of hardship. I think often about the predicament that Joseph Smith and his companions faced while they were imprisoned in Liberty Jail. They were forced to eat human flesh, were barely allowed to see their loved ones during the months of their imprisonment (probably feeling as if they would ever see them again) they were plagued with disease. Each one of the men in that tiny room had every reason in the world to complain... but the only account we have of words of 'complaint' from Joseph smith are a few of the verses of section 121. He stays positive... knowing that the work is good and that God is real.

I may not know very much, but I do know that I have a testimony of the peace that the scriptures, words of the Lord and his prophets, can bring to your mind, body and spirit. I would be so lost without the comfort of my Father in Heaven when I plead with him for strength.

I do have faith. And I do have hope. And I must remember these things to be able to make it through another challenging year at BYU. I already feel like I'm going to be buried underneath so much work that I won't be able to recover. I know he has given me this challenge to make me a better person. He knows I need more of a push to get me going in the right direction. He knows me.

And that's all I need to know.

A bran-new year.

This week has been a fun time for me. I'm suprisingly not stressed about school and I feel so comfortable because I have an apartment to live in, and my roommates are great. It's kinda odd though I'm feeling like something's missing or going to go wrong because it's all so la di da...

but... it's also really nice so you know... we will see?

(this is part of Jeff's letter that I wrote him... but it's also what's going on in my life so here you go.) I love having experiences and feelings of peace that are associated with the spirit. There is no better time then when I just feel that peace that everything will be okay and that the lord and heavenly father love me. I have some amazing classes this semester. Yeah school started Monday and It's been so great. I am in some really fantastic classes that I'm excited about like... Asian humanities (which is going to kick my bootaay...), Chronic disease prevention (which is all about how to avoid obesity and diabetes and heart attacks etc... PLUS... i have an assignment to go on an all veggie/fruit diet with chicken/fish sparingly... what could be better!) Then I'm in this class called Home and Family life which will pretty much just teach me how to be a good mother and person. It's all about relationships and how to make them better and nourish them. I'm in two religion classes which is SO cool because I have some of the best professors for those classes and I've just been feeling the spirit so much in them. The last class i have is my anatomy class which is all about the makeups of the human body... So pretty much... I'm just loving all the classes I'm taking because they're all about my major and minor and just good stuff. I do however, think that all the reading I have to do for my classes is going to sink me to my grave. Let me now tell you of my roommates, and how awesome they are. We haven't had any problems with them and we all have roommate prayer together and support each other when things are going bad. I have my roommate Whitney who you have met. You already know who awesome she is and how easy she is to get along with. We are just the closest of friends and haven't been mad or anything yet. My other roommates names are Hanna and Kelly and they are just hoots. They both just talk with a southern drawl and love life and being with friends and having fun. So... we all get along great. Last year at this time I just wanted to break down and cry and quit everything, but now I'm just loving the experience. The lord has been blessing me to know that I have it easier then almost anyone and that life will be okay no matter what because I have a testimony of the church of Jesus Christ and a love for my father in heaven and his son. I just know that it's real... the atonement is fascinating and I can't wait to keep on learning things. I want to tell you one last thing... Okay two last things. The first is that Lacrosse practice started up today and was a great time. I like to play with those girls and there's just nothing quite like playing an organized sport that lets you work out so good! woot! ha ha, anyways, I just thought about that as another thing that I have done since I last wrote you! Thing two then is my job. Okay, so what we do is edit a newspaper called the 'nauvoo neighbor' that is a newspaper from Joseph Smith's time in Missouri and nauvoo. It has been such an interesting week this week reading the articles that we have been editing. They've been talking about Joseph and the other men's experience right before and during Liberty. I learned today that they were forced to eat human flesh, and were not allowed to say goodbye to their families without a member of the militia with them... and even then it was only for a few min. The militia men also told the imprisoned men's children and wives that 'daddy wouldn't be coming back'. How awful is that? I can't even imagine being the wife of one of those brethren and having all of these travesties happen to me. It made my favorite sections from the D & C that much more important and special. (the reason being they're section 121 and 122... all about liberty jail.) I just think that that in and of itself is such a testament to the truthfulness of the gospel.