Certifiable Gleek

So remember how my favorite T.V. show was "Ugly Betty"? Well. The reason for this (disclosed with much more information in a previous post) is because Betty defied the odds that were against her and pretty much never forgot who she was and what her potential was. She stuck up for her family values and was always a friend to other people before she even though about herself. Now, the show had some twisted ideas of what values are... but the central character of Betty was my favorite part.

Now tragically this show has ended for good, and so on my quest for another show to love, I stumbled again on Glee. Now. THIS show has next to no morals for kids in high school, or anyone else for that matter. The characters are sexually driven in a lot of instances. And even though I am embarassed to put this but out there, there's a but. But the central theme of the show is to be yourself, no matter what other people may tell you to be. Okay okay, this theme has been beaten like a dead horse in so many of the sicoms etc. out there on t.v. but glee has extra power in it. This extra power comes from music. The music in this show is INCREDIBLE. Now, i am pretty picky about what I call amazing music, but glee for some reason just literally sings to my soul. The songs are so full of power and drive... and these kids are MY age. So, let me sum it up for you. Watch this show if only for the music they sing. It is making me wish I could go back to high school and really be into Madrigals for the experience it was. I always wanted to do show choir, so this show in essence is a time for me to re-live a little bit the joy I got from singing in high school. Okay, ode done. Enjoy!!

Interesting times

Oh blogging world. What interesting times we live in. What interesting struggles we have. Do you believe we hand picked some of these struggles? In a sense, we did... because we chose to choose the things we chose. I am choosing tonight to change some things. I really need to. I've felt peace about this decision. I'm excited to implement it. I am going to be better about so many things... with you all as my witnesses I commit to being a better member of the church through regularly attending institute, church meetings (mentally attending them not just physically ha), reading my scriptures, and praying. I also need to get a handle on my self control. I'm slowly becoming one of my worst fears... and I don't like bad dreams, so I'm going to stop them from coming true. Here's to taking down the bad guys today and fighting for a brighter tomorrow. :)

Road Runner

I think the cartoon animal that is most like me is the road runner.... A, because of his speed in going everywhere and B because of the dust that he leaves behind him.

Today, I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed by both parts of the road runner.

I've been so busy since january, it's been a whirlwind of activities. I was busy with school (homework and studying), family (birthdays and sunday dinners etc.), dating (surprisingly a lot my second semester, but to no avail... no one i've really been interested in), and especially lacrosse. This years lacrosse season was a whirlwind of it's own. I've been back and forth so many times about what i want to do with lacrosse next year because of various experiences this year with coaches, fundraising, comments from team members and limited playing time in practice and games. But... after this last week I know I need to play again next year. We went to the national tournament in Scottsdale AZ

It was a great opportunity to be with the team and learn a lot about what lacrosse can be for my team. We have so much to improve on next year, and i will be more of a leader then an underdog (hopefully) so I think I'll enjoy it more. Plus, I get to be around girls who are so much fun and great friends, and be physically active, and also to be able to travel around places. It's so unique, and it is a big part of who i am. I don't think I'd be content with giving it up. Thanks to mom and dad for their support of me throughout all my crazy decisions. Also thanks Katie and Karin for coming to AZ to support the team and me. You're the best. :)

Anyways, School started up again last week and I'm stressed which i shouldn't have to be, but i am because it's a 7 week semester with only 3 class periods and already I have midterms. I just wonder... why don't I ever take it easy? Usually it just makes me stressed and not as happy as I possibly could be. O well...

As far as the dust part, lately I've been feeling like I'm getting left behind in the dust of what everyone else is doing. People are going on to bigger and better things, and what am I doing? I feel as if I'm again in limbo... a hard place to be in that I remember being in my senior year around this time. I'm just so unsure of everything, while it seems as if everyone around me is sure of everything. I KNOW THIS isn't the case, but sometimes it feels that way. I think if I lived around a different culture then mormons and BYU i'd feel differently. I'd feel more normal about just working and hanging out all summer instead of planning for a mission, wedding, or internship somewhere. I KNOW I have an amazing life, I just wish I could have my crystal ball today and not have to wait till heaven to see into it.

No worries, I'll be over all this by morning, but it feels good to get it off my mind.