TIny insight into life...

"The Power of One"

My humanities class is bomb.  As Anna says, the word bomb is all encompassing... it's better then the bestest... Absolute.  Pretty much these two pictures are bomb.  They give me hope.  I believe experiencing trials and coming out on top is one of the greatest things we can do in this life.  It is more admirable then making millions of dollars, being famous for playing sports well, being a well-known author, actor, or community leader.  Each individual trial we overcome in this life is a stepping stone towards what is the very best, absolute = Heaven.  If we, like this picture of the women holding back what seems to be an entire army, hold off all of the hardships, temptations, and just plain old crap that Satan and his army throw at us, we will make a difference to ourselves and many others.  We will come out on top like the man on the mountain.

  (Caspar Friedrich, Traveler looking over the sea of fog. 1818)

This man seems to be on the presipus of his life looking over in Fear? with Hope? deep in Thought? experiencing Feeling?- you interpret for yourself- but to me this painting makes you feel something awesome (awe-some).  It is a reminder to me that each day we have the chance to look over what we want to learn from yesterday (the hard climb up the mountain), experience today (enjoying the top), and make for tomorrow (the surroundings of untangible atmosphere).  The VASTNESS of the future is sublime... it is important to take something out of each experience of life and remember the good times... To try not to look so much into what could, would, and should be the future, but at what can and will be today.  

   Thanks for all the good advice etc. Mamma, Daddy, Kim, Danielle, Paul, Spencer, Chris, Jacee, Katie, Kyle, Jeff, Brandi, Lindley, Whitney, Anna, Ness, Tanner, Carla, etc etc etc!!!  :)  

Loves to you all.  

Life is good... Each day is a blessing. 

Live each day like it was your last.   

P.S. - Talk about being reflective this sememster!!! I'm growing into grandmother willow. 

Cali forni ahhhh

This is me surfing for real... I was trying really hard to be in hawaii simultaneously ha ha!
Brandi, Lindley and I found this awesome little bridge place under the boardwalk.  It was fun to pretend we were falling of the edge... from here came some of my favorite pictures. 
The girls!  We always take pictures on vacations we go on.  How lucky am I to have gone on so many vacations with my close friends because of sports or art history or just cuz we can!! :) 


O how I love the sun shine!  It reminds me of the person that I want to be every day.  I'm so much happier with an ocean breeze in my face and my buddies by my side in shorts and a t-shirt.  It was a great trip and a perfect excuse to get away.  Now I probably should have been paying more attention to Lacrosse while I was there, but I mostly just loved being away from p-town and drama and have an excuse to just let loose.  It was fun to be with my team and we even one one game!!!  It's kinda funny though cuz we all seemed to enjoy the beach more then the actual lacrosse playing.  Girls will be girls.  

Life/Crap happens... pick it up and throw it away

    I like to think that when you have bad days they always seem to get better... Seems like lately the bad days just go on and on... I'll have parts of days that aren't so bad... but then bomb hits and kelsey's getting stretched into 1,000 pieces... so here's a list of things I'm grateful for today... things that made today a good day. 

1.) I slept in my own bed in sandy with really warm sheets. bless-ed. 

2.) I have friends that are willing to talk to me and be open with me about important issues in their lives. 

3.)  I have a computer that works that lets me keep up with people who I don't see very much and stalk those that I want to see more. (joke.) 

4.)  I have AWESOME support system back home and know that no matter what I do, they'll be there for me.

5.)  I have the book of mormon to teach me the truth in this life and lead me in the right direction when I feel like there are too many directions to choose from. 

6.) My body works well and I can run off my problems most the time. 

7.) I'm bringin sexy back

Nuf said

So yesterday

So yesterday was so hard for me!  I was anxious the whole day and just felt like my head would explode or something.  I like being busy but being as busy as I am on wednesday's is starting to keep me all knotted up.  I had a good night though so it was okay that the day was super stressful.  I just chilled out for a few hours and when I went to bed, I just got this little comfort... I even took a picture of it.  My bed was so comfortable-looking and it gave me an awesome nights sleep.  I have also been exercising fairly a lot so my pent up energy goes to a good sorce instead of going to my school-work.  

Thanks daddy!

"Attitude is everything. Be kinder than necessary, everyone is fighting some kind of battle.  Live simply, love generously, care deeply and speak kindly.  Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass.  It's about learning to dance in the rain."    

~Anonymous  

My dad sent all our family this quote today, and I loved it. 

How perfect is this!  

Have a happy day. 

Limitless??

     Lately I've felt like I limit myself.  I question how this is possible.  Aren't you supposed to be able to do anything you put your heart and mind to?  If you were to ask me what I wanted most in the world, what would I say?? I probably would say that I want to run effortlessly and be 15 pounds lighter. HOW VAIN AM I??? Seriously, if I could have anything I wanted, that would be it.  Not a man (which still would be nice), not anything you could buy, but a toned body that lets me function at my highest level.  But despite my good efforts to be a healthy eater and exerciser, I keep eating so poorly, and skipping out on my intended morning runs.  I sleep in late, go to bed later, and slack off whenever I can.  I love who I am, don't get me wrong.  I feel so blessed to be moving and breathing with full mobility, and I have an intense love of the gospel which I can't wait to keep learning about and growing from, but everyone wants what they seem to never be able to have. This is why I want to stop others from getting my sort of mentality...

    My ambition for the rest of my life is to become a wife and mother, but on the other hand, and what seems more realistic to me in the state I'm in right now... is to graduate from BYU (or a good college) and get my degree in Health Education so that I can teach high school kids about having good self esteem and not letting trivial things get in the way of their aspirations... along with this hope comes the bigger, better thing I want to do with my life.  I desire to be a motivational speaker who targets middle school girls and teaches them about self esteem in a way they can relate to, understand, and hopefully be interested in.  So much effects young women in today's world.  If you don't look like what 'others see as great' every day, sadness seems to prevail in your life.  If something in the slightest goes wrong, your life can topple out of control.  Some people kill themselves (by becoming anorexic, bulimic etc.) after gaining five or so pounds.  This is unethical!, and I know Heavenly Father sheds tears for guilt ridden young women who have insecure feelings about their bodies, the things that they eat, and their self image.  I want to change the world of young women!  What they see and how they act in regards to their self-concept.  I want to take Satan's evil plan of destroying women through self doubt, and change it into the women's biggest strength!  This is my most sincere of all desires.  I want to use each of my personal experiences to help in this cause.  So how do I do it? 

*I will gain a licence to teach aerobics classes (because what other place to feel good about yourself then at a gym with other women similar to you, working towards goals of physical fitness??? Support group, that does more then just talk. Perfect.)

*I will graduate, and excel, in Heath Education with minors in teaching, and women's studies.

*I will work hard to become a better person so that I can reflect to those around me what I believe in so strongly. 

*I will become Hildagard 

   My family thinks that my desire for heath and exercise is scary, and sometimes, I scare myself at my 'lust' for fitness, but the reason for this is because I want to see POSITIVE changes in people's lives around me, especially myself.  The kind of joy you can find through endorphins that make you just feel happy during and after exercising. 

  O heaven.  I have a large responsibility.  But I want to take it by the horns and ride whatever waves come my way with poise and power.  

I will run with the punches.  

I will be

'limitless'. 

Just to clarify...

FAMILY. I still love you and will be with you.  Especially on sundays.  It doesn't make logical or economical sense to come home as much as I did last semester.  I spent a fourth of my savings on gas last semester I swear, and my schedule is CRAZY!  If I haven't laid it out for you yet, let me enlighten you as to what my weeks entail... 

Monday: 

*School from 9-2 with a one hour break (during which I work out at the RB)

*Work from 3-5

*Conditioning from 5-6

*Dinner at the Canc... 

*Family home evening??? (most likely that one will be a "YEAH RIGHT"!) ha ha ha... 

*Homework (and maybe a jazz game if they're on... ) 

Tuesday: 

*BIG BREAK - during which I study from 9-11, then I work from 11-12, then lunch, then more studying... 

*4:30 - 6:30- Lacrosse practice 

*6:30 - 7:30- Dinner at the Canc with Kyle

*7:30 - 9:00- Humanities class

*9:00-10:00- Work again... 

*10:00-1:00a.m. ish- Study/Homework

Wednesday: 

*Same as monday except that after stats class I have stats lab at 2:00, then work, then I have another class from 5-7.

*Conditioning from 8-9.

  One work for wednesdays = POOPY

Thursday: 

*Same as tuesday with a 12:00 class thrown in. 

Friday: 

*8:00 conditioning

*Class from 9-2... 

*Work at 11:00, and 2:00. 

Saturday: 

*Practice 9:00-11:00a.m. 

Pretty much I have no time for a life, so it's okay that I have no serious (ha) man friend cuz I need to do well in school with my 'extra' time. 

P.S.- Kyle got FSN so bring on the Jazz games along with everything else. 

P.P.S - I'm also playing on an intramural basketball team.

This semester is going to do this to me... It's already started. 

More grown up?

Today I feel more grown up... do I look more grown up then I did before I came to school?  I feel like I have learned so much!  vundaba.  I feel like I understand a little bit more about the importance of the gospel and of gaining a good education.  I have a better attitude... so far I'm quite happy with my own little life... he he.  I have better time management skills and that relieves a lot of stress.  It's been a good day and I've gotten lots of stuff done.  My schedule for the rest of the year is pretty much down to the hour every day besides the weekends.  I have brakes on monday nights after 5 and wednesday nights after 7... the rest of the time is scheduled out with either school work, or classes and practice for lacrosse.  Look at me go right??  The saddest part of this whole thing is that I am busy on tuesday and thursday nights meaning that I miss the best nights of television.  Maybe it's a blessing though eh? :)