Limitless??

     Lately I've felt like I limit myself.  I question how this is possible.  Aren't you supposed to be able to do anything you put your heart and mind to?  If you were to ask me what I wanted most in the world, what would I say?? I probably would say that I want to run effortlessly and be 15 pounds lighter. HOW VAIN AM I??? Seriously, if I could have anything I wanted, that would be it.  Not a man (which still would be nice), not anything you could buy, but a toned body that lets me function at my highest level.  But despite my good efforts to be a healthy eater and exerciser, I keep eating so poorly, and skipping out on my intended morning runs.  I sleep in late, go to bed later, and slack off whenever I can.  I love who I am, don't get me wrong.  I feel so blessed to be moving and breathing with full mobility, and I have an intense love of the gospel which I can't wait to keep learning about and growing from, but everyone wants what they seem to never be able to have. This is why I want to stop others from getting my sort of mentality...

    My ambition for the rest of my life is to become a wife and mother, but on the other hand, and what seems more realistic to me in the state I'm in right now... is to graduate from BYU (or a good college) and get my degree in Health Education so that I can teach high school kids about having good self esteem and not letting trivial things get in the way of their aspirations... along with this hope comes the bigger, better thing I want to do with my life.  I desire to be a motivational speaker who targets middle school girls and teaches them about self esteem in a way they can relate to, understand, and hopefully be interested in.  So much effects young women in today's world.  If you don't look like what 'others see as great' every day, sadness seems to prevail in your life.  If something in the slightest goes wrong, your life can topple out of control.  Some people kill themselves (by becoming anorexic, bulimic etc.) after gaining five or so pounds.  This is unethical!, and I know Heavenly Father sheds tears for guilt ridden young women who have insecure feelings about their bodies, the things that they eat, and their self image.  I want to change the world of young women!  What they see and how they act in regards to their self-concept.  I want to take Satan's evil plan of destroying women through self doubt, and change it into the women's biggest strength!  This is my most sincere of all desires.  I want to use each of my personal experiences to help in this cause.  So how do I do it? 

*I will gain a licence to teach aerobics classes (because what other place to feel good about yourself then at a gym with other women similar to you, working towards goals of physical fitness??? Support group, that does more then just talk. Perfect.)

*I will graduate, and excel, in Heath Education with minors in teaching, and women's studies.

*I will work hard to become a better person so that I can reflect to those around me what I believe in so strongly. 

*I will become Hildagard 

   My family thinks that my desire for heath and exercise is scary, and sometimes, I scare myself at my 'lust' for fitness, but the reason for this is because I want to see POSITIVE changes in people's lives around me, especially myself.  The kind of joy you can find through endorphins that make you just feel happy during and after exercising. 

  O heaven.  I have a large responsibility.  But I want to take it by the horns and ride whatever waves come my way with poise and power.  

I will run with the punches.  

I will be

'limitless'.