Day 3: song that makes you happy

So, every time I hear this song, I get pulled into another world and I feel content about things. A smile gets put on my face, and all is well. Hope it makes you happy too. :) - P.S. - it's also my ringtone ha ha.

Day 2: Least Favorite Song

My Humps - Black Eyed Peas. I'm not going to post this song because it's disgusting and retarded. It shows the world how perverted we are as an American people in our media. I cannot believe it was even allowed to be put on the air, let alone become a 'hit'. Yuck. I remember the first time I heard to this song. I was listening to some tunes on the radio while I was taking a shower and it was part of the set on 97.1 (Utah's 'hit' music). The backbeat was good so I was like, sweet, a cool new song. Then I listened to the lyrics. What the? I was appalled and immediately I changed the song. Recommendation... DON'T listen to it... and if you do, stop, because there is much much better to be putting in your mind than that garbage. Nuf said.

Day 1: Your Favorite Song

Day 1: My favorite song. Now this I think is a rediculous question. My favorite song changes from day to day. But this is a song that I listen to more than almost any of my songs. It brings relaxation to my soul, and just makes me feel at peace. I think that John Mayer is also my favorite artist, so that helps. the song is

In Your Atmosphere by John Mayer

Joining the Blog Fad...

I have been thinking a lot about doing this, and have decided that it will be fun and I want to... so you get to read about the kind of songs and music I like... My playlist will reflect these songs if you are at all interested in listening to them, and I don't even know the answers to most these questions... so I want to answer them ha! Anyways here goes nothin. Oh and also, I think I may quit lacrosse... any thoughts?

day 1: your favorite song

day 2: your least favorite song

day 3: a song that makes you happy

day 4: a song that makes you sad

day 5: a song that reminds you of someone

day 6: a song that reminds you of somewhere

day 7: a song that reminds you of a certain event

day 8: a song that you know all the words to

day 9: a song that you can dance to

day 10: a song that makes you fall asleep

day 11: a song from your favorite band

day 12: a song from a band you hate

day 13: a song that is a guilty pleasure

day 14: a song that no one would expect you to love

day 15: a song that describes you

day 16: a song that you used to love but now hate

day 17: a song that you hear often on the radio

day 18: a song that you wish you heard on the radio

day 19: a song from your favorite album

day 20: a song that you listen to when you're angry

day 21: a song that you listen to when you're happy

day 22: a song that you listen to when you're sad

day 23: a song that you want to play at your wedding

day 24: a song that you want to play at your funeral

day 25: a song that makes you laugh

day 26: a song that you can play on an instrument

day 27: a song that you wish you could play

day 28: a song that makes you feel guilty

day 29: a song from your childhood

day 30: your favorite song at this time last year

Confused Emotions

Sometimes I just have confused emotions. I do not know why, but I get wriled up sometimes. Little things bother me, and I feel down on myself. Yes, this typically happens when I am in the mist of the best week of the month, but they're legit feelings. Tomorrow is a new day. And relationships are gay.

Marriage, Brandi Gone, Y Group leader, School again and Yellowstone

Good luck and miss you B!

The happy couple... looking at the temple... ah serene

So I didn't have any Yellowstone pictures yet... so this is the Handy's... ha ha! (and Lisa West... Will's mom)

Me and cousin amanda at the wedding... Too cute not to post cuz I don't think I've ever had a picture with her before! Kind of fun.

Well, since that last post a lot has happened in my life to make some great changes and new adventures. First thing that happened was that my wonderful brother and best buddy got married! Yay to Kyle and Ashley. They got married on August 18th in the Salt Lake Temple and had the most beautiful reception dinner I have ever been to. It was breathtaking, and so were they. Kyle was so happy, and so was Ashley. How wonderful to have finally made that comitment to each other after 2 years of 'cyber' dating if you will because everything was over skype... Bless their hearts. It was a really happy day. We had a delicious Hawaiian buffet and then a program where all of us siblings got up and said a little something about Kyle and Ashley and then mom, dad, and grandpa B talked a little and so did the bride and groom. They went to Park City for their honeymoon and are now living in Provo as Kyle finishes what he hopes is his last year here at BYU (His major is chinese with a minor in business management).

The next week (exactly a week) after Kyle got married, by Brandi left on her mission to Columbus, Ohio! What a joy for her, but a bitter sweet time for me and those very close to her. She made me this super cute photo book of our friendship up to this point and I just bawled and bawled the day she left and the night before. We went on a 5 mile run the day she left for the MTC and we just talked casually as if nothing was changing and then I just said bye and I turned around and cried... Oh bless her. I hope that she finds the mission to be exactly what she was picturing and that she can just love the experience. I know she will.

This week that Brandi left I was a Y group leader for the new freshman class coming into BYU. It was a blast! I got all these precious freshman who were scared and eager and excited to be here on campus and be living the 'adult' life after high school. They kept answering all these questions and I finally felt like I knew what I was doing. It was a blast, and I will for sure be doing it next year!

School started last monday! I declared my major and minor on the second day of school and here's what I am doing "FOR SURE". I am a School Health Education major with a minor in PE teaching and coaching. How perfect right? THis way I get to teach health, pe, coach a few sports and hopefully do aerobics classes. Just the lifestyle I want and I'll hopefully be doing it for the right reasons and help students get through the tough times of high school... Also, after a few years of teaching I hope that I can be a public speaker to Youth on overcoming body image issues. So I've finally figured out a way to do everything that I love, and I'm so excited. I've kind of come full circle. :) So so far, school is bomb. I'm having a super good time! I've already been on a few dates and have a few more coming up this week... so I'm doing well socially. Plus... I have these amazing roommates who I just love to death like they were my own blood relatives. It's going to be a good year.

So for labor day weekend I got to go to Yellowstone with the Handy family, Katie, and my parents! It was so fun, and it made me appreciate the little things so much more. It was so beautiful there. What a beautiful and fun (free) way for me to spend the holiday! Being there made me think of Jeff a lot, and miss him. It was kind of tough being there, but at the same time it just made me want to strengthen my friendship with him so that I can go up there again ;). Anyways, it was a fun time.

Well! that's my life till now. Today I got a job as a TA for a professor from last year who's also my stake president and a fantastic person. I'm so happy... life seems to be going my way. Lets hope. :) Wish me luck!

Catch Up

This is a picture of the back yard of the Cash lake house... SO pretty. And that's luke in the background too... funny kid.
This is the crew! Left to right= Adam, me, Jeff Perry, Shawn, Brandi, Jed, Luke, Mitch, MaCall, Dave, and Ainsley. Spence also was there but he left a little earlier then the rest of us.

So I haven't blogged for almost a month and that is crazy to me... I can not believe how quickly the time has gone by. I've had some incredible experiences and I feel like I have learned a lot in the last month.

I have been more seriously dating a few boys this last month, both of which are of naught but taught me a lot about myself and about what I need in my future. I have been busy going out with them and hanging out with my friends most every night. It has been such a joy and a blessing to have all of those guy friends back home from their missions. I have had such a blast. This last weekend we went with Brandi and her family to her cabin up at bear lake. I went up there on thursday night and the rest of the crew came up friday night. Friday Brandi and I went running in the morning, then went out on the boat for about 4 hours (and I actually wake boarded for longer periods of time... super fun) and then we just laid out and listened to music and read. We came inside and played some volleyball and we went out on her jet ski for an hour or so also... so already we had had a physical day. Well, that night we decided to leave the boat out because it looked like it was going to be a really calm day and we would be fine. So about an hour after we came in from the lake, a storm flew in (literally within 10 minutes the world was in chaos outside). So needless to say, the boat was full of water within 30 minutes, and it was so wavey and dangerous that we didn't know what to do. We took all of the things that were in the boat out of it and then we just had to wait out the storm. Our friends came around 9 and the weather was back to calm and beautiful so we all went out in the lake (my friends came outside the second they got there and jumped in the lake with their clothes on... such amazing kids) and we bailed out all the water in the boat and got it inside. So by this point, we were all just exhausted (the cashes and I especially because of the long day anyways). It was so sad... the boat seems like it will not recover, and it was a nice nice boat. Anyways, we played games and got to know each other a little bit better then watched a movie and went to bed. The next day we played on some water tramps, the blue mat thing they have which is really funny and kind of sinks when you get on it... and with 12 people on it it was a good time. Then we played on the jet skis, played lacrosse, basketball and volleyball and enjoyed the sunshine as much as we could. I just love that place, and love these friends that I have been blessed with. Most especially I am so grateful for my buddy Brandi. She is such a strength and blessing to me. She is so amazing and a great example of learning by faith. I am going to miss her so so so much when she leaves in 2 and a half weeks for her mission to Columbus Ohio.

Well, that's really what's been up in my life. I have been helping Mom get everything together for the wedding in a week and a half and have been trying to keep the sanity as my dad's been out of town at the national jamboree. It is so nice to have him home again... he is our rock.

The Simplicity of My Life

Sometimes I pause and reflect on 'my life'. And by sometimes I mean all the time. Most of the time I am content with where I am. I think that the Lord blessed me with a spirit of contentedness. I don't typically question the gospel, where I am in life, or what I'm doing with it... maybe because I have faith in the plan... but it all just seems to be fine. But as I was looking through pictures on FB today... I felt this tinge of regret. Regret that I did not have the guts to apply all the way for the New Zealand study abroad, or that I was too slow to get into the Europe one. Regret that I live at home this summer, instead of living away and making friends and having 'my own life' separate from the one I'm in etc. etc.

Well... after the regret came the Gratefulness. Grateful that I AM in this place today. Grateful that I have the gospel, which gives me hope in the future. Grateful for my working body, and loving family. Grateful for my friends who bring a lot of joy to my life.

See.

I lead a really simple life. I have a job (or 3 depending on the week), an AWESOME bed to sleep on with a loving family around me to support me. Sure, I'm not having the adventures that some of my friends are having, but I am having my own little adventure.

I'm getting to know my mother's life better... the kind of p a i n, worry, and love she feels for all of us children. I am learning how much work goes into being a full time mother, friend, sister, and wife. I am learning how to organize better then ever before, and I am learning most especially to LOVE. Love everyone, and love deeply. Care. Try. Work.

You know, I always say this, but I just KNOW that life is about learning. Learning who you are, what you want to do, how you can overcome obstacles and be that much better.

Contentedness is a feeling quite desired. I am so grateful that currently, I am content. And Happy